So there I was lying in bed last night, excited at the prospect of a year spent collaborating and creating new music and I realised why I've been a bit weird whenever someone has asked me 'how's the music going?' lately. No matter how many times you say, 'well' or 'good thanks' people want to know more and for me at least it's hard to tell when there's nothing physical to show for it. The music is good, has returned and is swirling around my head with promise but at the moment it's not ready to be shared. So I've no new CD yet, I've few dates coming up to play and it's all because I've got this lovely green shoot of life that I want to help grow and I'm waiting to see what will come of it.
I can tell you this though I am in the process of booking studio time and I have spent all morning sorting my demos out only to realise I have two albums worth and can't decide which one to make - which is just the loveliest feeling ever! It was fantastic to visit Bude folk club last Sunday 1. because there are so many gifted musicians who frequent it and 2. because I got to finally play with Tim Pointer again after about 4 years. No practice, hearts-pounding we managed 4 songs and they went down well. What more can you ask for? :)
I also had a great time returning to the Palladium with Kevin Beano green. I've loved learning new songs to cover and rising to the challenge - Jack Frost was in my head for a month I think before finally gigging it! Yes all is on the up so stay tuned to see what the little green shoot grows into....
So yes yet again I haven't been particularly present here for a while, since the Dorset Steam Fair ended I've been trying to rekindle the fire...yet again. It seems I have a penchant for walking into demoralising situations but hey we endure.
So my Guitar is currently broken and I'm currently too broke to repair it haha you've got to laugh haven't you? To be fair I'm broke for a fairly good reason, not only did I holiday in Croatia recently (ouch to the pay cut) I am also off to Morocco in a few weeks for Christmas. It's a place I've always wanted to visit and well you know what I'm like with mountains...
Music wise I am currently obsessed with outlander and all things Scottish which is merely fuelling the word vomit further. I was hoping to focus more on composing instrumentals for a bit but it seems something in me won't allow it. Oh well I tried! I'm hoping to get together with some old friends next year and see what we can arrange and create so watch this space. I'm not done yet ;)
So all that's left to say is a premature Merry Christmas and a happy new year xx
I bet you were wondering where I've been! Well like most I got caught up in the stampede to the end of term... and then I went on holiday. I realise that's no real excuse as I haven't written in here since I went to Scotland but a lot of drama has come to pass and sometimes you just don't want to write about it because you don't want to give it more power over you. Know what I mean?
So where am I now in the grand scheme of things? To quote myself, "right, where I've always been" - how pretentious am I, quoting my own song, you know what if you can guess the title I'll give you a free CD at my next gig! Now there's incentive. Ha ha no seriously though I really am right where I've always been, humming underneath the radar, reminiscing and romanticising... but the truth is, and this will shock you, I don't want to write about those sad things anymore. Time did a lot of damage but the one positive thing that album did for me is it truly helped me get over losing my Dad. I'm at peace with it now and you'll have to forgive me but I don't really want to remember the pain anymore; Too Soon had its time and its place and its in the past now.
"Alright so what are you doing now?" I hear you cry, or murmur... honestly I do feel pretty forgotten which is pretty sick after 10 years of gigging, but hey maybe I'm just knackered. Gigging is fickle and a two way thing, if you're not prepared to go out every week and play you get left behind, that's the way it is and has always been and I just haven't got the time or energy to gig that much. I don't think I ever did actually, I always felt like - for me at least - to gig that often would take the magic out of it.
It's no secret I've been winding down this year and spending my time (in between working my butt off) finding myself. I haven't liked all I've found and I've been trying to change that and I can feel a positive change happening. I've even been writing again, and not just reams of madness scribbled on the back of an envelope; PROPER musical musings. It's all very exciting as I was starting to feel like maybe the well had dried up but no it's there. There's a spring in the bottom and it's refilling, at long last!
I've even been thinking, and I mean seriously thinking about making another album. I have actually re-recorded Evergreen - it was a side project over christmas to try and rekindle the fire - but we've but it on the back burner for the moment while we figure out how to pull it all together. I was very proud of that album when it came out and I want that again with the next one. I have some songs and a theme so I'm going to go with it and see where the journey leads me.
That kind of brings us up to date really, I'm very much looking forward to playing at Wilderness fest as that seems very much up my street as does the Dorset Steam Fair. Still not sure how I got that gig but I am so psyched for that one. I'll be singing on the carousel all night!
Love as always and thanks for the continued support. I know you're out there... said the X Files fan...